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Hi Sunflowerliz

So sorry you lost your precious twins.

I lost my baby girl Evie 2 years ago, she was born at full term and died when she was 4 days old after suffering a bleed in her brain. our wee rainbow is now 4 and a half months old and brings us so much happiness every day. There is no doubt it will be an extremely emotional time but I got through her birth by focusing on the end result. I was just so determined that we were going to bring this little one home with us. Thankfully it was a very different experience 2nd time around which did help.

Not sure I've been much help hun but just wanted to wish you good luck and hope it's an uneventful birth.

Lots of love xxx

Hello Sunflowerliz, I'm so happy to see you're on the last lap now. A rainbow for Christmas - how perfect

As far as coping with emotions of delivery goes, like the lovely Rally I can only share my experience with you, but I guess we all have different ways of coping, and you'll manage somehow hun. Looking back I still don't know how I managed to carry and deliver another baby after my loss, but thank goodness I did because she is worth every crazy minute of it!

Our darling DS2 was stillborn at 36 weeks, so the plan was always to deliver DD early - though miraculously I managed to carry on until 36+4. It sounds pretty grim, but my way of dealing with the entire pregnancy was to believe our baby had a 50:50 chance. She would either be born alive... or she wouldn't. I knew the actual risk of my having another stillbirth was low, but during that time the statistics were meaningless to me. So I mentally prepared myself for both outcomes - I suppose it gave me a sense of control regardless of what happened. And just hoped and hoped plan B wouldn't be needed.

I ended up being admitted to hospital for the last few days before DD was delivered due to her unstable lie. Which was really the best thing as I was an emotional wreck by that point and it really helped me to have basically round-the-clock monitoring at the end. And I'm sure my slowly losing the plot was partly why I was admitted too - my consultant deserves a medal! And right up until the last minute we didn't know if delivery would be by induction or section, so that gave me something to focus on - strangely, stressing about the method of birth kind of stopped me worrying so much about the outcome. A cross-that-bridge when we come to it situation maybe. And after the emotionally charged time leading up, I was actually remarkably calm on the day DD was born. It was like: ok, she's coming out today and that's it - whatever else happens, today is the day.

It sounds like you're being well-looked after - that definitely helps. Stay strong and try to believe your precious twinnies are watching over their baby brother or sister. Wishing you all the very best and looking forward to your imminent announcement xxx

I have no words of wisdom to write, but I did want to give you a big instead.