I feel somewhat stupid saying this after all the IVF we have been through but I actually have a phobia which mainly dwells around blood pressure taking.
I am sure I am alone on this

and I know it's absolutely crazy in the norm I don't have high blood pressure I am average but put a cuff on my arm and my heart starts racing and I always get a comment but it's like a panic button gets set oIf
I always mention it but sometimes people just don't get it and end up saying something to make it worse.
I think having spent a longtime evaluating why I am like this it's a fear they are going to tell me there is something wrong. I used to spend a lot of time with my Grandad who in later years used to take his own bp in front of us. I think the fact he retired, stayed with us one Xmas and died of a heart attack perhaps I associate it.
I tried hypnotherapy years back but that was rubbish and now I want to do all I can to protect my babies from their silly irrational mother
Any ideas? Am I alone?
I have my own and think I will take it each day see if I get used to it