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I got a positive last monday and tuesday after af didn't come but I had a little spotting. Was pleased 'cause it's been a year since last m/c and we'd done everything right this month. Went to the Drs and they've given me Pregnyl to inject twice weekly to give luteal phase support. However I've continued to spot and there is a pink tinge to the mucous every time I wipe (tmi) and it's staining my underwear (again tmi). I know I need to try and keep positive but I just can't find any at all. I've already given up and keep thinking when is the m/c going to start to the point that I'm carrying sanitary pads around with me. I know I need to kick my butt and get some pma but I don't know how at the moment.

they won't see me at the epu until I'm gone 6weeks. I'm only 5wks. I know it's early but I was really hoping 3rd time lucky. 3 in a row makes me think it isn't just the law of averages and also makes me think the IVF won't work. The spotting has become heavy enough to need a pad now but doesn't seem to be any worse at the moment. I'm just not sure that it's not just the pregnyl keeping a doomed pregnancy going. Don't really have any cramping like on the last 2 "recognised" m/cs. Ho hum. Really feel like giving up at the moment. It feels like someone is having a bad joke at my expense. After 5 yrs ttc I really didn't think anything else could go wrong. I was stoked to get pregnant and now my body can't even get that right. I know it makes me horrible but when I see people around me getting pregnant at the drop of a hat when they don't want kids it really hacks me off. I know there are people worse off than me but tbh I don't care at the moment, and I know that makes me horrible too.

sorry about last nights rant. I was just feeling very low. Today I'm feeling a bit better. It's amazing what 2 bars of galaxy can do for you The bleeding is stopping but I have pain over my kidneys. So fingers crossed it is just an infection. I'm going to go to the Dr tomorrow and see what they say.

Had a scan today and it's inconclusive They have taken bloods and I've to go back on wednesday for more bloods as the pregnyl will make me look pregnant even though I might not be.
I just don't know what to think. The spotting became a light bleed on sat and sun then is back to spotting again. The lining of the uterus is thinner than they would expect but given the constant spotting they said that may be normal. No sign of a sac but they said I'm only just 6weeks so that could be normal too. Don't know if it is normal or not to not see anything at 6weeks. I am just 6wks.
Feel so drained today, and am taking the day off work. If I sit down the bleeding is less when I'm moving around doing stuff the bleeding gets slightly heavier. My head is telling me it's all over but my heart is still hoping.

I'm leaving work in 4wks anyway 'cause time off for IVF would have been a problem. There are people on holiday at the moment and one of the other girls is pregnant and so can't do a lot of the heavy stuff or theatre.
TBH I'm doing a lot better than I thought I would do. In my head it is all over so I'm already just wanting it all to be over so I can get the Drs to start testing for chromosomal problems or immune issues. Just don't have the energy to do any research at the moment.

thanks for the support Polly. It is appreciated.